Fine. I admit it. I'm homesick. This is supposed to be my first step towards curing my homesicknees aka identifying my feelings. Well, if I have to..

   I had very little problem adapting to this new environment. This suprised not only me but my friends too. (who i found out had very little faith in me making it here! thanks guys!) The only problem is I feel like going back home all the time. Well, not all the time just when things suck or are boring and especialy on the wekends. My weekends are meaningless now. Just those 2 days at the end of the week. My puasa is not filled with fun 'family moments'. It just me eating the same food day in day out. I seriously feel like asking my seniors how they dealt with it cos they same perfectly fine. Its just weird cos were not that close..hmm..mayb later then.

   I just cant help but wonder how long this is going to last, cos 5 years of this is gonna be V.TIRING! Maybe when Pak Tut moves here things will be better..fingers crossed then. That's me- always the optimist.not. Desperation and denial is more like it.

   Currently I'm dreaming about getting some aldo heels for raya, after i get approval from my mom that is. Oh, I just found out I;m gonna be wearing this indon light pastely green kebaya..oh lala. cant wait. 23,22,21,20,19,18...gosh cant time move any faster.sheesh.

   Peace out. Hope everyone's having a better time than i am.

   Selamat Berpuasa.

   Eventhough I didn't get to watch the show ( the first time ever!), I still got to watch chris brown's awesome performance, better than Brit's anyways..

   Yay! I finally have internet! well anyways, life is BORING!!! gosh, living away frm ur family + not having a car + studying this insanely tough course = no life! The ppl are fine, the lecturers are fine, the place is fine. So y does this suck so much..i seriously have no idea.

   Neways, to distract myself frm my current situation, I've been reading celeb gossip pages. Essentially people who are rich and have fabulous lives but chose to screw it up in some way or another. Sheesh! Could not believe the news about goody2shoes vanessa anne hudgens..hello! my lil sis adores her. What kind of role model is she potraying???

   Anyways, the countdown is now 32 more days!!! til i return home..i cant wait. Just thinking about it makes me happy. Im gonna c da fam, my darlings, get to drive, eat fantastic food, have intellectual conversations, b surrounded by ppl who actually noe wat flip flops are (long story).

      Not to complain, cos i noe im seriously blessed (Alhamdullilah) but I've realized that Ive gone through a couple of personally challenging experiences. I noe friends who have not gone thru any of these experiences and i wonder y? why me?

   I think its all to help me grow as a person and mayb prepare me for the future. FOr the first time ever, I feel a lil but like an adult and independent. Well i guess thats one thing I can take frm this experience! If only life was like walking through a field of daisies..haha.

   Cant belive Drills gone to Dublin, I miss her! I hope shes ok. Oh! Shahira & Tika: gud luck!

   Neways I gotta take a shower and study! Nite2.

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.
Name: Nadiah Saqiinah Jalil 

Birthdate: 23rd June
Current Status: Tired.
Eye Colour: D.brown.
Hair Colour: Black Brown Copper Blond.
Righty or Lefty: Righty


LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
My Heritage: Malay/Indon/Thai 

My Fears: WAY too many to list..ask anyone who noes me.
My Weaknesses: New cellphones/laptops/BMW's 

My Perfect Pizza: hands down: Domino's Aloha Chicken Thin crust

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
My Thoughts First Waking Up: Do i need to drive them to music class?
My Bedtime: When Im sleepy.
My Most Missed Memory: Huh?

LAYER 4: MY PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Coca COla!!!. 
McDonald's or Burger King: Mcds for everything else, Burger King for well,burgers  

Single or Group Dates: hmmm
Adidas or Nike: Nike but sehr teuer and im allergic to any physical activity.
Tea or Nestea:Nestea.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate in every from but vanilla ice cream rocks!

LAYER 5: DO YOU...
Smoke: Nope.
Curse: Duh.
Take a Shower: DUh
Have a Crush: James Morrison n Orlando Bloom...theyre both brits.i just realized.

Think You've Been In Love: With a significant other..not yet.
Go To School: Well kinda graduated high school
Want To Get Married: Yea but not now.
Believe In Yourself: Yes.
Think Your A Health Freak: refer to nike/adidas

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST.
Drank Alcohol: No.
Gone To The Mall: yeay!
Been On Stage: When i was younger.
Eaten Sushi: No cos im scared of uncooked meat but shahira's trying to convince me.
Dyed Your Hair: yup between 5-10 times.

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER...
Played A Stripping Game: suprisingly yes! a realli stupid game when i was 8 but im way good at it so i still jaga aurat..

Changed Who You Were To Fit In: Yup once...NEVER AGAIN

LAYER 8: AGE YOU'RE HOPING...
To Be Married: WHen im ready & i found the right guy

LAYER 9: IN A GUY...
Best Eye Colour: purple
Best Hair Colour: brown  

Short Hair or Long Hair: in between?.

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A Minute Ago: chatting to drill for like 1 milisec
Hour Ago: watching MONK..addicted
5 Hours Ago:watching football    

1 Month Ago:Vegetating
Year Ago: German course...

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love: my friends&fam 

 I feel: tired
I hate: doing nuthing.
I hide: my anger/feelings/thoughts/
I miss: all my friends
I need: get of my gemuk butt.

    I am addicted to Monk the tv series, I noe it hasn't been on tv but I just got the dvd boxset for season 4 and i love it. My theory is, ppl like the show becos everyone has an obsessive compulsive side of their personality, or maybe Im just making myself feel better since i realli identify with his character, not sure realli.hah.

   The hewitt&nadal match in the french open was just heart-breaking to watch. I thot I was the only one that thought so since ihearthewitt but drill confirmd it. It must be tough for him, hewitt, to be overpowered and beaten like that by a 21 yr old like that.lifes tough huh? The Sweden&Denmark football match was awesome. Sweden was leading 3-0 into the first half (i was WAY happy) but then I had to drive my Mom and by the time I came back it was a DRAW?? wtf? then the Manager tried to hit the referee because he gave a red card to a Swede. It was super dramatic.This is exactly why I watch football.hehe.

   On a way more annoying note, Ive been receiving realli annoying, disgusting, harassing messages from this guy. I have no idea how he got my number. I was way freaked and annoyed so I called Maxis. To top it all off, I got the blurrest woman EVER and she offered absolutely no advice. She kept saying " Kita tak boleh bar dia, dia pun pelanggan kami," DOINK! So basically we can do nothing to stop harassing callers/messages. Even if u make a police report, Maxis will give u the details of the sender. What the hell for? shessh. The system is so retarded. By that time, I decided to just ignore the loser and he seemed to stop harassing me. The next day, he calls again and he smses asking who I am and that he had just lost his fone...how stupid does he think I am?? I wasnt born yesterday but maybe he was...lol

   What a week...I got my matriculation results on Monday, dyed my hair (again!) on Tuesday wif drill, tas,mak & raja. Had lunch wif them on Wednesday, practiced driving on Thursday and I just got back from my driving test...n i PASSED!!!

   I can't believe that I'm finally a legal driver..well not till Tuesday anyway.hehe. I was super lucky cos I nearly failed the 'on-the-road' cos the light was turning yellow so I wanted to stop but the tester told me to go. Of course I didn't do as told...I don't want to fail! so I then stopped 'melepasi the line thingy' n got this long speech from him but i kept nodding my head and repeating 'minta maaf'..n he let it slide. Thank God!

And I nearly failed my 3 point turn cos I thought I was in first gear but i was in reverse, i reversed a little but i don't think he noticed..once again..Thank God I don't have to repeat that horrendously scary experience.Yay!! Now where's that car my Dad promised me..hhmm..

   So I'm not sure if u've noticed but today's results day.haha. Today I woke up super-early and switched on the computer. I went to the asasi site but the results still wasn't on. By this point I thought I was gonna have a heart attack, I just needed to know..the anticipation was killing me.

   The second the results were out I typed in my ic no, i was "Oh shit,did I just press enter?!?!" By the time I realized this my results were on the screen. Im kinda pleased, eventhough I didn't do extremely well, I got what I deserved, asasi turned out to be an invaluable experience. I realli grew up there. So as I have to fill in the IPTA form tomoro, fingers crossed!

   So tomoro, I have my guitar class, for which I haven't realli practiced, then I'm gonna dye my hair wif Tas & Drill. Probably on wednesday and thursday I'm gonna have to practice driving cos my test is on FRIDAY! fingers crosses (again!) N on Saturday, I'm going on holiday (me & my mum r gonna shop for uni!yay!).

   So now I've gotta write an essay to state my future plans, strenghts, weaknesses, etc. n practice my barre chords.

    A shoutout to all my friends: Viel Gluck! Good luck! Hope we all make it throught this in one piece.

GO WATCH SUMOLAH!!!

It's a really entertaining movie with a really good message and lots of heart.

I just watchd it tonite at klcc and I was pleasantly surprised  to see the place was practically FULL..maybe cos it's a saturday nite tho.

Support the local arts scene!

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NOKOTTA!

   I've just realized that I'm in denial that UM is over, that phase of my life is over, results are coming out, I have to go to uni and do the whole fitting in thing all over again, I'm gonna be 19, I have to grow up...I think my state of inactivity since leaving Pasum has been a result of not facing the reality of my current situation, so now that I have realized my denial..I can move on (hopefully!).Oh and to add to the list of kinda depressing things on my mind, I can't go to the james ( my sayang-ness) morrison's gig in singapore cos it's the day after results...im so sedih! n tika&syra are going to be in aussie whn results come out so its minus two on the whole moral support list..haha.

   Anyways, on a happier note, todays MOTHER'S DAY!!!! Me n my sis spent 3 hours looking for a present ystrday just to avoid buying the 'usual' (crabtree/bodyshop sabun etc) and we bought her a ...quilt!!! Its all floral and yellow..kinda comel actually. So today we went to equatorial and had an amazing lunch..i had a star burger..(pics coming soon) it was probably the best burger i have EVER had...we ended racking up a huge bill..but it was sooo worth it! Shoutout to ibu: You rock!!!!